just when i thought i would have everything in control when i grow up,
things just have to get even worst..
it is like a waking nightmare came knocking on my door but i refused to open it..

ingatkan dah besar tau jager diri sendri..tp disebalik nyer pulak..
haiz..

i think im a failure..
a failure in handling a relationship..
a failure in handling my school (which is easy peasy)

the truth is, im a failure in everything..
for my 19 years of living on earth, i dont see any talent in me nor do ive made anything productive..
all i do was just fucking laid-back..fucking doing nothing..

i feel like calling it a quit..
stop schooling and start helping getting income for the household..
getting my wants and all..
how wonderful is that,uh..
but hey, reality check, you're nowhere if youve only got O'lvl certs!
goodness!

i dont feel like going for FYP meeting tmr..
i just wants to go for a picnic,
lay on a mat, admiring the blue sky with cotton candy clouds,
with a light-hearted heart that is free from worries and problems..
i'll be satisfied even if it was only for a minute..

if only we could just use a remote to control our life..
like going back to the past && undo the mistakes that you did..
or just press forward to skip the chapters that you dont like..
how awesome is that..
but that would be only a big IF!